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Lost gumption

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Gumption

Not feeling great about the status of the blog at this point. I had fours posts in April and five in May. It appears all the air has been let out of the balloon and I have lost all my gumption. A part of me really cares that I can’t get stuff on the screen and then another part of me doesn’t really care at all.

I have stuff to say, but is it worth saying? It will just piss people off and, sure, that was part of the point of this blog but at the same time there is so much hate for the truth these days (and I mean REAL truth, not the “my truth” BS). The point of the blog was just to vent and get crap off my chest because I often don’t feel I can actually talk to the people around me.

Perhaps I care too much and should care less.

Perhaps I don’t care enough and should care more.

So, if you seen my gumption laying around anywhere tell it to “Go home” or put it in a box and ship it to me.

What choice?

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Choice #1 = crap; Choice #2 = bigger crap

There are a lot of situations in life where you just don’t feel like you have a choice. Of course, it is presented to you as though you have a choice in the matter but you know dang well after hearing “the choices” that there isn’t really a choice.

Don’t you just hate it when someone thinks they have a great idea and you just hate it but they tell you about it expecting you to think its a great idea too and then you have no choice but to go along with it because if you don’t then you know dang well you’ll catch hell for however long they decide you get to catch hell?

Why do I keep having this happen? Well, because someone in my life thinks they are helping someone else when all they are really doing is making things worse. Surprise!

Can’t win if you do (because the idea makes things more complicated and is potentially can make things worse) and I can’t win if I don’t (because someone thinks their idea is the best and telling them “No” will only make things worse in the relationship).

Rock || between || hard place

Don’t you just hate it…?

Batten down the hatches

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Crap. This “boat” was sailing in one direction only to have the wind change and now the “sails” are all messed up and there’s a “storm” on the horizon (ok, maybe this was a bad metaphor to use since I am not a sailor…).

Anyway, have you ever gone to bed prepared and juiced up to do something in the morning at work? Like, you totally have all your ducks in a row and you’re psyched to get stuff done! Yeah, that was me last night. I have some projects I need to work on and am excited about doing…

ONLY to find out in the morning your boss has given you a different assignment and your plans are totally out the door? Damn. So much for that “wind in my sails” crap. Deflated and definitely not excited about the day ahead.

So much for progress.