Patience tried

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Ya, know? Waiting sucks. Having patience sometimes can be very difficult.

Had a relative have a pretty major, serious surgery today. The person getting having the surgery has had a difficult decade, it seems, and is rather frail so there was some definite risk involved with this surgery. Information about what was happening was slow, and when it finally came time to hear the results it became unbearably silent.

Like, so silent that when the results of the surgery were supposed to be given there was an hour where no one knew what was going on at all. Everyone waiting for word one way or the other….

Thankfully, the relative made it through and the surgery and is now recovering. There is still some danger, but on the road to hopefully being better.

Silence. Patience. Unknown.

It’s hard to handle at times.

Partially informed

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One thing I really dislike is only getting part of the truth. Some would call this “omission” of truth. Some might go as far as to say it is lying since the whole truth was intentionally obfuscated. Deception. Dishonesty. Whatever you want to call it, I dislike it. The sad thing is that this seems to be common practice of nearly everyone in all aspects of daily life. Is there really an truth out there?

I hate trying to make a decision based on only part of the truth.

I hate trying to have a good attitude when I was intentionally misled about an activity or people.

I hate trying to be objective after I was only given some of the facts on purpose.

I don’t like being partially informed, even it it was unintentional.

I don’t care if you are an acquaintance, a friend, or a family member. If you aren’t going to give me all the details, I am going to be down right grumpy when I find out the whole truth or all the facts.

Recently, this seems to have been a common occurrence by those in my circle – close and not so close. I am only getting some of the info and I am finding out now, which is hurting relationships and even costing me more money in some instances. Unfortunately, the close the people are to the circle, the harder they are to push out of it.

I am always paying attention and I am, by now, obviously not the most trusting person because of past experiences. But, when the trust is violated even now, it makes for a difficult road ahead. People I shouldn’t have to distrust are causing me to do just that…

I am tired of living with my defenses up, waiting for the next instance to just confirm why I feel the way I feel.

People suck.

Garbage “reporting”

The dude that wrote this article isn’t reporting anything (don’t actually click on the link unless you really wanna see it, cuz I really shouldn’t be exposing people to this kind of crap journalism). This is an opinion piece and should be flagged as such. As you can see, neither Google nor Yahoo News decided to label it appropriately.

Damon Linker, a “senior correspondent,” apparently doesn’t have anything to report on so he just decided to publish a article about his opinion. Yahoo News should actually be ashamed for putting it out there. Apparently, Damon has no shame either since he actually clicked publish on this.

News isn’t news unless it is reporting something of interest to the reader. Opinion, should be labeled in a manner that makes it clear there is no news, it’s just someone’s perspective. This is opinion. There is no reporting here.

How do people get paid to do this stuff…

Need to know

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“You’re on a need to know basis, and you don’t need to know.”

The above phrase gets tossed around a lot, but there are actual times when it applies. Yesterday, I ran into an instance from my employer that seems to fit this to a T.

The admin assistance to our department director came around with a new form to fill out. It supposedly is something that we have filled out previously and supposedly only has one line changed on the whole document. The supposed change is “to comply with federal grant requirements.” The added line really isn’t the issue for me though.

The document is basically a “driver screening” risk management form. I get that in order for me to drive a company vehicle, they have to ask certain questions and it is expected that I report certain details should circumstances require the necessity to do so. That isn’t really an issue for me. I understand the necessity of such a screening. HOWEVER…

The document goes on to ask about information that I believe is totally unnecessary and, quite frankly, a violation of my privacy by asking about my personal vehicle. As in, should I drive my personal vehicle during work hours and on work time. The document is asking for the kind of vehicle I drive and license plate (why would it matter what vehicle I drive if it is my vehicle?), what insurance company I use and the policy number (with specific amounts of coverage); it requires to inform my employer if I drop expected level of insurance to a lower level, and expects me to waive all rights as an employee if on company time and there is an accident in my personal vehicle.

Does this sound invasive? Is this typical? Do you willingly give your employer information they don’t really need?

Yes, there is travel required as part of my job. Yes, I do prefer to drive my personal vehicle instead of the crappy company cars. But, the requirements of this document are “part of my continued employment” with the company, as though the document and my driving my vehicle have anything to do with my job performance and skills as a trainer and software analyst.

A big part of me bristles as this whole thing. I can accept that my employer needs to know certain things about me, but I don’t accept that they need to know everything about me.

I partially joked with a co-worker who was feeling the same way as I was yesterday that it won’t be long and they’ll be asking for our homeowner’s insurance policies since we telecommute several days a week.

I can see the future, and I don’t like it.